Adventures in Boobie Feeding

Well things with breast feeding aren't going so well with Connor in NICU for 5 days and receiving feedings from the bottle he hasn't taken to the breast. Now, I can pump like crazy but then I'm a slave to the pump and feedings are practically doubled in time but if it's what I have to do then I don't mind. I want him to have a healthy start in life. Yesterday we went to a lactation specialist at Long Beach Memorial (it was our first drive together alone, needless to say the radio was off and I definitely drove below the speed limit) and we actually were able to achieve some lach-on time which was great but short lived. He looks so scared of my boob when it comes near him that I worry I am tramatizing him but we're gonna keep at it and hopefully we'll figure it out. I think it was just too much for him yesterday... he came home pretty fussy took a bottle and just wanted to he held. He slept until dinner, ate and has been passed out ever since and now it's 3am. I'm thinking I need to take him there more often it's been nice to get 3 and 1/2 hours of uninterupted sleep!!